~MasterArtic

im making a new DA account so ill pm all of you that i acctually want around lmao ttyl btw my fiancees sis got kicked out BYE (i have to make a new DA in order to still be on the site but be away from creepy stalker ppl **cough cough**)

meagen is happy she moved into an apartment with her fiancee and her fiancees sister and her fiancee is NOT alik(zalamath)its the one none of you guessed it was david 3 years on june15 XD and the apartments great and im so happy to be with davie my oopy BYE BYE btw i hate alik he fucked everything up that i worked 3 months on but david fixed i love him and also I LOVE YOU KRISTEIN TY FOR BEING THERE

ever get the feeling your just falling and u cant stop, I got that right now I just wanna ru until my legs give in and i fall so many things are going wronge because i wanted to be happy on my own for once and i cant stand it. So many weird things going through my head, So many problems I wonder if i can be looked at with love Its so hard to deal with the pain of my mistakes the only thing to do is be punished as if it all wasnt a punishment if i could do it over i would change everying stupid that i did i try not to be selfish but i was this time its so hard to deal with my stupid mistakes in the process i lost 2 people i loved and i dont think they would ever accept me back it hurts so bad and i dont know what im spossed to do all i can do is write nonstop and let it all out but it still hurts ive always known that its better to make urself sad to make someone else happy but for once i decided i would put myself in theyre position and make myself happy but it didnt work now i put myself into hell to fix it i cant explain it, it feels like im falling apart and ill never get the pieces back together i feel so shitty i havent fixed my makup or hair for so long i look like shit now i havent been eating right and i just keep falling more and more i want to get out but as long sa the 2 ppl i love are happy then its worth it i fixed it but im in hell for it i want to run and never stop i hope i get over this soon.

sorry i put this on DA but theres really noone to talk to.

STONED(prologue i guess)

Sneaking back through my window i take my last hit off my bow-my last sip of beer, Then close my window, The sound of the wind whistling through my window screen I close the window quietly so not to wake my half sister, who is only 11 months at this time, my real mother passed when i was 7 and my mother got together with some ugly ass hoe when i was 14 but i still love my half sister. I go to see if my dad is home-nope-of course not hes probably drunk at some bar. Ow well this just means no school for me, I stop to check on my baby sister on my way to the shower to wash the smell of pot liquor and vomit off of me, so beautiful she's sleeping like a little angel. In the bathroom I take my last pill to help me go to sleep.

This was me 3 years ago, My name is Faith -i was -and still am -A druggie. There was nothing I and my friends wouldnt do. Unlike in the stories I didnt need help from the person who got me started on drugs. It's nothing like the media would have you believe. The whole thing started when I was 16, I was never considered "cool" in school although my thirst for popularity was hidden within me i cursed, fought with teachers, smoked cigarettes, got bad grades and alot more, i was just another juvenille delenquient, And i guess--i guess thats what made her notice me--she was considered "sexy" and "hot"--everything i wasnt, because my blonde curls couldnt compare to her long brown wavy hair, my green eyes were nothing compared to her ocean blue eyes, and all the boys wanted theyre hand on that 34D chest of hers--DAMN GIRL--her name was Rianna and she was the coolest girl in school.

At first I didnt want her at all, from the moment she said "what's up!?" and waved to me I wanted her to shove off and die. I finally accepted her one day-- the school was out on a fieldtrip--to where i dont know. I just know that we werent in school that day and Rianna was sitting in the back with her friend Brandon, I hated them both. I had my pack of cigarettes in my bra so the teacher couldnt find them and i just wanted a bathroom break so i could smoke the damn things, all the teachers were up front thats when Rianna saw her chance and she took it. Her and Brandon came up to me "hey Faith!" Rianna smiled "so....Brandon has something for you." he reached down my bra and took my cigarettes. I punched him. He was pretty bad ass because he just turned his head and wiped off the blood. opened my pack of cigarettes and replaced them. with what, i didnt see until i got to the bathroom that day "holy shit! its a joint" I didnt ask any questions when Rianna walked in the room smiling, we smoked it and i was stoned.


you steal this and ill fucking go crazy

Ok I broke up with my BF for 2 years because i didnt feel it anymore and in the process i have met the most amazing boy ever hes supportive, sweet, good looking, honest, smart, i could go on forever i think im tottaly in love with him and amazingly HE LIKES ME TO HE ACCTUALLY THINKS IM CUTE OMG I MEAN I KNOW IM NOT CUTE OR ANYTHING BUT HE THINKS I AM!!!!!!!!!!! i just thought id share the good news i havent been on DA alot latley because my computers been acting funny but we got it fixed although in the process we ended up getting all my poems and art deleted off it but thats ok youll be seeing work from me again and mabye a pic of THE MOST AMAZING BOY EVER